*WARNING* SERIOUS RANTING ABOUT TO ENSUE.
I made the mistake of getting on the scale today...well I should've known it was coming, the pants are tight, like really tight! A couple of years ago I lost about 40 lbs. Over the last couple of years I've gained some back well, today, the scale told me I've gained 30 of that 40 back. I wanted to cry, in fact I did have a good cry. Where did it come from, why is it I work out like a madwoman and I'm GAINING it? One other question for you...why the h-e-double hockey sticks do some woman NOT gain weight (no matter what they eat or the fact that they rarely exercise) or if they do you can't tell because instead of being a size 2 or 4, they are now a size 6 or 8. PLZ?! Well, I'm ranting to you, my friends and to you, the blogging world instead of plagueing my dear husband, D with all the details. Normally, people blog about weight loss instead of weight gain but nope, with me you get the THUPER DUPER EXCITING NEWS...that I'm officially FAT! Well, I'm sure your all squirming in your seats or have clicked away from this page right now because your totally uncomfortable, as I'm sure I would be reading someone rant about themselves...so I will stop soon. All I have to say is I'm MAD!!!!! Great things come when I'm mad...really great things...so in about 2 months, I will have some sexy pictures and a new bod, because it's going to come off NOW! Okay, I'm not an idiot...I know I don't eat super good 100% of the time. I do love my sugar...Red Vines just kill me. They made those huge tubs you see in the store...just for me ;) I'm the one keeping them in business. So, you see, I have to give up something I love (sugar) to get something else I love (a hot bod)...right?! I can do that. I've done it before, I will do it again. Well for those of you who love me enough to have stuck with me this long...thanks! Stay tuned for the GoOd NEws!
P.S. I'm really sorry if I offended anyone in my rantfest, especially those of you who are in the size 2 to 8 range ;) I know that some of you work really hard to stay there. I talk to many tho, who don't work hard and are in that range and that's where my frustration comes in...just wanted to clarify that!
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LOL- don't ya love it?!?! I absolutely agree...I had a few friends who ate junk food all the time and were skinny toothpicks-granted they probably weren't very healthy- but it's sickening. when i hear skinny whinny girls complain that they're fat...I feel like slappin them, seriously, gosh. =) well, if it means anything jen, I think you look great! I put my scale in faith's bathroom so i don't think about weighing myself-cuz it's got me depressed one too many times. =)
I love ya!!! I completely understand what you are going through. But I also know you and YOU CAN DO IT!!! I am sick of the scale, clothes that don't fit and skinny girls that can eat anything and then complain about being fat. Good luck I know you can't battle anything and overcome it!!!! I love ya girl.
Jen, Did you know that in Tonga everyone loves a "plump" healthy woman!! Why is it that here in the U.S. a size 8 is the only acceptable thing? Are you sure you're not prego? You have to be! You looked great a couple weeks ago at Abby's baptism! Don't rule out all the other possibilities!! Maybe you had something in your pocket that weighed 30 pounds... maybe your scale is broken! Maybe you have gained some good stuff...not fat... and absolutely not sugar!! So help yourself to the red vines!! Just remember how God feels about you and your body!! You are doing better than most at taking care of it, exercising and learning all sorts of good food for us! I think God is very pleased with your efforts and desire to take care of your body. We just have to somehow realize that the worldly image of a great body is not important!! That's not why we are here!! But that is SO HARD for all of us - the perfect size body seems to be the only acceptable thing in this world!
you make me laugh woman! you are the strongest lady i know! and dont forget muscle weighs more than fat! maybe you should stop lifting som much SUPER WOMAN!:)
i am going through the same thing though but i am just taking a break aahhh i LOVE the redvines!:)
Redvines, fat, skinny friends, size 8, wow these are all things that plague me time and time again...don't give up, it sucks to ahve to work at it all the time, but I think there will be extra blessings in heaven for those of us who had to watch our skinny friends eat the red vines while we are sweating on the elliptical. BIG EXTRA blessings...maybe we'll get to eat red vines (and peanut M&M's)in heaven and they won't. Hee hee (not really bitter).
So maybe I shouldn't comment on this since I am on the other side of the fence but I think I have heard more negative things from people about being skinny than someone who thinks they have a little extra weight so I feel a little drive to post anyway. My mom and I were talking about this this morning actually about how people will always say things like "you are so skinny or too skinny" in a sarcastic or rude tone and think because they are saying the word skinny that it's a compliment or something, which in no way is it meant that way. Or I have had SOOO many people say things like, "give that extra piece of pizza to Traci she needs to fatten up" which again, am I supposed to take as a compliment? No one would ever say to someone struggling with their weight "don't give that to so and so they need to watch those pounds" I don't get the drive that our society has to being skinny and being a perfect size at all. I think weight is relative. A size 6 would be big for me just because of how my body is made where as someone else that might be a 6, 8, 10, 12, whatever, might be the right size for their body because of how it's made. Each of us has our own battles. Mine is to try to be healthy. I really really struggle at that. No matter what size my pants may say I am I still can't exercise like some people that are 6 times my size. And I feel like I take more flack for being skinny and "not doing anything" to be that way than a lot of people. Sorry this is such a long post I guess I just see it as there are two sides to every story. I don't mean to diminish any of your frustrations because they are yours and they are real. I think you are drop dead gorgeous and would give anything to be able to have the endurance and health that you do, just as someone might give anything to be in a size 2 jeans. But I guess we all need to realize that each of us has our own obstacles that we face and they are so very different.
Traci, I appreciate your view point. I have a very close relative who is very thin and grew up with a best friend who was extremely thin, no matter what they did, they couldn't gain and they wanted to. They would complain all the time about what people would say to them. And believe it or not people may make comments about "skinny" people and it may come across sarcastic or whatever, but believe it or not, they do make comments about us big girls too and it hurts. I did not want to offend in my rant. Us girls have to fight with what the media portrays as perfect and so clearly there is no such thing as perfect, right?! I like Lynette's comment and appreciate her pointing out how God feels about our bodies. He is perfect and he wouldn't make a mistake in how he created each of us. We are his "perfect" creation.
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